from marilyn robsinson reading:
*Test why is the emb- part of embryo
Rest important like the -essed
Arrest part of blessed?
yest – erday
Bed shed red read dead bread bred bled said ted fed fred head wed unwed embed instead
i am intentionally wasting pages because this notebook will be done soon and i have no other one. i am intentionally wasting pages although this notebook will be done soon and i have no other.
at Marilyn Robinson reading; will fall asleep.
NEED NEW NOTEBOOK. could get moleskin. skin of moles.
NEED TO SLEEP. could sleep instead of going out. skin of college students.
i don’t feel as crazy (energetic, riled up) at prose readings as i do at poetry readings.
bubble wrap + tricycles
one girl is falling asleep.
the dollar store- maybe i’ll go tomorrow.
he says “don’t cry” she says “i’ll never cry’ he said
i used to watch poirot movies with my parents.
when i was in that stage when i was probably too old to like things like that but did anyway. my parents, i mean. i liked them for too long, past when the rest of my friends had already begun to complain of theirs, and perhaps that is why my distaste with them continued so long, or perhaps there are more people who still don’t like theirs. perhaps i do like them for who they are now but can’t forget who they were then.
i pray constantly.
and also that hollow- a hole, almost- in the top of the wrist just at the joint, almost unnoticeable.
last night i dreamt my toenails were disintegrating.
but then, forgiveness.
and how can i sleep when i know that one day i will die? but who can i live knowing i will keep living forever? knowing i will have so many thoughts? how i can i have thoughts at all?
to see adults! they are so old, and we are so young. how are we so young?
And Religion! i will change so much.